A good time for change.... 10.21.20

Today is a normal day for most and usually it would be for me as well.. you know, get up, eat some breakfast, drag myself to work, etc etc etc, the same old song and dance. However, a few weeks ago I decided I needed a change....

Looking back on this past year I wasn't living my life, rather letting it play out on auto pilot. My life has had its share of ups and downs throughout 2020, I'm sure a lot of others have felt the same way as well. With covid drastically changing the way we go live our day to day its brought a lot of things into perspective. This life is short and every day is a gift, things can change so fast. I found myself slipping more and more into a dark state of mind (again)...

I needed change, I needed to find "my happy" and let myself do and try things that truly bring my soul to life again. I have been working at a job where I am nothing more then another employee, where I will never been seen as more and never be givin the opportunity to grow, which I long for. I have always been the type to give things my all, to strive to be better, to learn more, but lately I have been struggling to give anything at all. I have felt I have been pouring from an already empty glass.

A few weeks back, after months of trying to convince me to take some time off work, a very good friend of mine and I finally decided to pack our bags and jump in his truck along with my two dogs. We were on our way to a very special place, a cottage in northern Ontario where him and his family have made their happy place, watched their family grow and shared so many irreplaceable moments together. I was so blessed to be able to share this place with him for a week. While we were hiking threw the escarpment, amongst the changing colours of fall I had the opportunity to pull my camera out, something I haven't done in a very long time. A hobby I have always had a love for but never seemed to be able to pursue as anything more then a casual hobby.

There it was, the spark, the fire, my happy....The only other place I have been able to feel that spark is with my horses, but that's another blog for another time.

So upon coming home with an SD card full of beautiful raw images, ( OH, and that "good friend" became my now boyfriend, you'll come to hear more about him as well. <3 ) I sat down to edit, another thing I haven't done in a long time. I found myself getting lost in creating masterpieces out of my photos, falling more and more in love with the moments I captured. Moments that will never be replicated but forever remembered in the photos I was creating. I knew I couldn't let this spark leave me again, I needed to chase it.

This was my new chapter...

Enjoy some of my favourite photos I captured on our trip.

--k.z---